I feel sick. In a good way.

The past couple of weeks have been quite a ride.

Personally, my body continues to betray me. But professionally, I think things are looking up! I received a large order for my small business and will be holed up working on that for most of the summer. After a very dry spell, I really needed the order. I keep telling myself it’s not just me, frivolities and small businesses are all feeling a pinch right now, but it’s very hard to stay motivated when there’s just no money coming in.

But I’m rambling. As far as my manuscript goes, I feel really positive about it! I finished the blurb. That’s huge. I booked an editor — HUGER. And much more emotional than I thought it would be. Aside from being a huge step forward for my novel and a monetary investment that means there is no going back or backing out or back tracking. Forward.

I found an editor that I believe will push me past my comfort zone, which means I probably signed on for more than I can handle right now. But that’s okay. I’ve got about a month to get this manuscript in the best shape I can, and then I have to let it out of my hands and trust the process. I’m a baby author, this is very hard for me. I’m nervous. I’m trying to take those nerves and use them as motivation for this final rewrite before my novel is seen by other eyes.

Deep breaths. I can do this.